Preparations for the life in uni

i never thought that my money that i earned last few months will be spent in just three days..i spent RM219.5 to buy the ticket from KL to KK.I also spent about RM2000 in paying the tuition fee and photostatting those documents.Not only that, i am going to spend RM2450 to buy a laptop(Toshiba Satellite L310)...i know the money i spent is worth to spend,but when the number in my account book is decreasing, i feel anxious enough...i worry about the life in uni,cause i have not enough money to survive in uni...haizzzz.....

i have not pack my belonging that need to bring to Sabah...Just feel lazy to do it...

感恩

我真的很感谢神让我可以进入大学。。。虽然不是我最想要的大学，虽然需要乘坐飞机才能到达的大学，虽然没有同学跟我读同一间的大学。。。但是我依然感谢上帝章显他的慈爱在我的身上，让我能感受到神是与我同在的、从都没有离弃我的。。。因为他应允我的祈求让我能读我想要读的课系--Food science。。。


我现在别无他求，只希望神赐给我聪明智慧及健壮的身体。。。我真的不希望历史重演（考试时生大病）。。。


我听我哥说，我这次必须自己照顾好我自己。。。不是他不想照顾我，而是他没办法照顾。。。因为大学范围很大，他在西边，我在东边。。。课系又不同，见面的机会是等于零。。。更何况我将会很忙（因为food science很难读，跟medic有得比），所以连抽时间出来见面都难。。。


我哥对我的大学生活感到悲观。。。而我对我的大学生活没有期待、没有担忧，我只包着平常心去看待我的大学生活。。。

Genting

8th-10th of Jun, I and my family were stayed in Genting Highland with my uncle's family...Nine of us were stayed over night in Awana hotel..

There is not as cold as i thought... And there is the suitable habitat for mosquitoes due to the moderate temperature...Luckily i brought Allano lotion(Amway product which can prevent your sweet blood being donated to mosquitoes )...Initially, my mum said Genting is quite cold and there might be no mosquitoes...But for the sake of my skin(if there is too cold, it might dry up my skin), i decided to bring it there(to moisturise my skin)...

We reached there at around 5pm... Once i reach there,i was accompanied by my two cousins to swim in the swimming pool...

On the second day morning, i went for a walk in the garden which is one the facilities in the hotel...

After the lunch, we(my father,brother and three cousins)were going to the top of the Genting Hill by cable car...That was my first time to take cable car...However it was not as exciting as i thought...we were wasting an hour to Q...and when i got in site the cable car,i started feeling faint...Haizz....

On the third day,after check out,we found that 11 cups of pudding left in the fridge...We were trying to get it back,but we fail...Haizzz

难熬的会经过的

最近发现我喜欢上 "快乐一家“的主题曲。


原因是我对这首歌的最后一句歌词有所感触 ——

“难熬的会经过的”

不知道是不是我觉得最近的生活很难熬，还是我一直无法忘记我曾难熬的日子。。。

由于这首歌并不是完全表达我内心的感受，所以我去把它的歌词改掉，让我可以好好抒发我内心的情感——

伤心回忆想几遍了 你的眼还是红红的

生命总要些苦难 现在不过多了一个

捱过了何必再想着 有些事总该遗忘的

你想着想着又哭了 我明白的

谁都难以释怀

别再哭了 多不值得

笑一笑把难过变坚强

生活苦涩 让你坚强

一切苦难 将会变成过去

别再哭了 多不值得

失去也是另一种获得

伤心回忆 不属你的

一切苦难 将会变成过去

难熬的 会经过的

*To：写这首歌词的人

Sorry，乱改你的歌词，希望你别介意。。

The words from the bottom of my parents’ heart....

Dad told me that every one is looking down on him including his own children


I know dad always have a sense of inferiority due to his low education level...Sometimes,when we are impatient to explain something to him,we will say:"Aiyoh!u won't understand la...It is not as easy as u think la!"..of course sometime we are not listen to him...The words that uttered from our mouth and the attitude we've shown to him have triggered him to think that way... Actually we didn't mean anything...we didn't despise him...However we have already hurt his heart deeply...



Mom told me that she wish God to mold and prune her children


Recently she feel very disappointed to us..Just because of my brother is in a relationship with a non-christian girl...Mom said, she have no right to choose our partner for us, but what she wish is we will be the one whom God pleased...I know she is very sad and hard to accept the choice that my brother've made and i know that she has also no any expectation with the guy i'll choose in the future too..
However i insist that i will choose a christian guy to be my life partner, but still i have can't assure that i will do exactly what i insisted to...


Both of my parents feel sad for us because they are not willing to see any bad thing happens to us...They don't want us to be hurt...So, they feel that they are the most failure parents in the world due to us didn't listen to them...

亲爱的阿爸天父：

我爱你。我也知道你对我的爱多过我对你的爱。我知道最近我远离了你。我已经有一个星期没和父母亲一同唱诗祷告（因为我沉迷于LOST这部电影）。我也知道这个星期我犯下很多有心、无心的过犯。因为在我心情很低落、烦燥时，我不回应我父母对我说的话，甚至连看都不看他们一眼。可是我却没有为我犯下的错向你认罪祷告。对不起，求你赦免我。


昨天，爸爸散到腰了。痛得他无法站太久，整个人必须斜着来走路。他的情况就像妈妈一样。我不知道你要我们这一家学习什么功课。爸爸已经被人欺负到无法申冤的地步了，他还必须忍受和妈妈一样的病痛？！我真的很怕父母亲有一天会痛到无法行走。上帝，你知道他们还必须为你作工，他们还没有为你建立合乎你心意的教会。神啊，求你医治他们！我求你。


前天，大哥在病倒了，无法工作。不过我很感谢你垂听我的祷告，医治了他，让他今天可以返回工作岗位。


神啊，你是不是要我改过，所以允许让这些事情临到我的家人身上呢？如果是这样，我愿意改过，我愿意帮爸爸舀沟渠的水去浇菜，我愿意帮妈妈做任何她吩咐我做的事情，我愿意听从他们所说的话。我希望你能医好爸爸妈妈身上的病痛。我希望你的荣耀彰显在他们身上。


神啊，求你按你的旨意行事。甚愿你赐福于我们一家，扩张我们的境界，常与我们同在，保佑我们不遭患难不受艰苦。阿们！

The reason

There is a lot of trials and disasters in our life.. Those unfortunate come without any sign..It's out of our control..I know this called life...


Many things happened last year....I really want to write it down....But i felt confused...Every time I recall those events that happened in my family, my tear will roll down unconsciously...


Actually i don't know how to start to write..Maybe I need some time to rearrange those events...I don't know...


"Tears may fall through the night,joy comes with the morning" this is wat I hope for....