It's the time...是时候了。。。

There is a time for everthing,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

凡事都有定期，天下万务都有定時。

生有時，死有時；

栽种有時，拔出所栽种的也有時；

杀戮有時，醫治有時；

拆毁有時，建造有時；

哭有時，笑有時；

哀慟有時，跳舞有時；

抛掷石头有時，堆聚石头有時；

怀抱有時，不怀抱有時；

寻找有時，失落有時；

保守有時，舍弃有時；

撕裂有時，缝补有時；

静默有時，言语有時；

喜爱有時，恨恶有時；

争战有時，和好有時。

传道书 3:1-8 　

After have been tortured for few months, it’s the time for me to let it go…

Why let it to distract myself?

The reason that I can’t cast my burden on HIM is due to that, I think…

It’s time to release, to get free…

Just feel that I am stupid enough…

The GUY in my dream doesn't equal to my dream GUY...


经过了长时间的折腾， 终于愿意放下。。。

忽然觉得自己很傻

是时候了。。。

无论我做什么，想什么， 他都不知。。。

何苦呢？

不是说好要单身吗？

为何会为自己寻找烦恼呢？

是，在没见面之前已在梦里相见。。。

但， 这并不代表是他。。。

是，母亲在还没认识父亲之前也在梦里相遇

但， 这并不代表历史会重演。。。

他已有他想要的幸福，是我所不能给的。。。

即使我能， 也不是他想要的。。。

因为对象不对。。。

为何要付出无谓的代价？

为何没人愿意为我付出？

任命吧。。。


虽然如此。。。

Blessd are those who mourn,

for they will be comforted

　　　　　　　　　　　　Matthew 5:4

哀动的人有福了，

因为他们必得着安慰

　　　　　　　　　　马太福音5：4

Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ，　Ｊｅｓｕｓ．．．

Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒ　ｌｅｔｔｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｌｅａｒｎ　ａ　ｎｅｗ　ｌｅｓｓｏｎ

Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒ　ｒｅｍｉｎｄｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ａｂｏｕｔ　

ＹＯＵＲ　ｕｎｂｏｕｎｄｅｄ　ＬＯＶＥ
Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒ　ｌｏｖｉｎｇ　ｍｅ
Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒ　ｓａｃｒｉｆｙｉｎｇ　ＹＯＵＲ　ｌｉｆｅ　
ａｎｄ　ｒａｎｓｏｍｅｄ　ｍｙ　ｌｉｆｅ

Ｐｌｅａｓｅ，　Ｌｏｒｄ．．．

Ｅｘａｍｉｎｅ　ｍｙ　ｈｅａｒｔ
Ｈｏｌｄ　ｍｅ　ａｓ　ｗｅｌｌ
Ｌｅｔ　Ｙｏｕｒ　ｗｉｓｄｏｍ　

ｂｅ　Ｂｅｓｔｏｗｅｄ　ｕｐｏｎ ｍｅ　
Ｓｏ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉ＇ｌｌ　ａｂｌｅ　ｔｏ　ｔｅｓｔｉｆｙ　ｙｏｕｒ　ＬＯＶＥ

谢谢你，耶稣

因为如此, 我更加体会你对我的爱

你爱我， 甚至愿意牺牲生命来赎回我

你的爱远远超过世间中的爱。。。

领导我，检察我。。。

让我能专心一志地把这爱传出去。。。

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I am lacking of motivation to study... I really have no idea regarding my mood right now...




Final is just around the corner...




I haven't started to study....




I have already plan the schedule of study, yet i can't practice it out...

21/10/09 night

I am really bad, bad and bad in English… I have already tried my best to improve my English by speaking with my friends and even think or dream in English!!!Yet i didn’t have any improvement…


The side-effect of using ineffective ways to improve English:
I found that I can’t convey my message in Chinese very well, even can’t speak Chinese fluently...I’ve forgotten a lot of specific term and descriptive words to express my feeling in Chinese… As a Chinese debater in UMS, I feel shame enough…


Now I am thinking of giving up my plan in improving English…I feel disappointed to myself…Y others can while I can’t?????What’s wrong with me???


Night always makes us recall or think about something…I really worry for the souls of my friends and relatives as the day is coming…More and more natural disasters have happened surround us recently…Really want to spread gospel to everyone in campus…But I worry that I will scare other due to my hasty...

and...


I m not showing a good testimony... My friends and seniors have always seen stress and nervous through my expression...As a Christian, I should able to put my worries before God…Really fall the glory of God and really lost the image of a Christian… Always asking others to join church and evangelize to them yet I didn’t have a good testimony in front of them… How can I serve the Lord???

somemore...

I m a pessimistic as seldom I give thanks but keep expressing my bad mood…Always emphasize those bad things happened in my daily life and ignore those good things in my life…


Lord, am I able to be your good servant? I know that willingness is crucial to get myself involve in your ministry… Lord, please examine my heart…You know that I am willing to serve you, somehow I, myself yielding to temptation, my evil behavior resulting of evil thought and sometimes even indulge myself in habitual sins...

Anxiety, worry, stress

I know that I should cast all my daily worries (burden) to God, but still I m not able to do that… What is happening to me??

I am not only worrying about my own problems, yet worry about others. Even though they will never know that I m worrying about them.. I m worrying about him.. I do not know whether he is able to handle all these problems he faced..I can’t help him but pray for him…

What supposed I do in order to put off my worries?

I have been through a lot of things in these few years..Sometimes I can't even believe that I m still alive, still breathing, and still able to live in this world like others...

I feel stress and I can't feel that Lord is in my life when I woke up this morning.. Sorry, lord…I recalled the song of Grace..

I ask you how many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down..
And each time I will fall short of your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?
And you answer My child, I love you, and as long as u seeking my face, you’ll walk in the p’wer of my daily sufficient grace…

How can I seek your face? My eyes have been cover by problems and I can’t even see your mercy that you have already shown upon me in my daily life, Lord… I know that you love me and so do I. Somehow I feel like I am not qualify to say that “I love U” as I keep falling your glory.. My bad attitude, my words, and my mind always sin against you…

I m lacking of motivation and I can’t focus in my studying..Really want to get an excellent result in Uni… I know my parents have a high expectation on me… I can’t disappoint them… They have been looked down by relatives, friends even colleagues just because of their low education level…They are not deserve to be looking down by others as what were they today is the consequences of scarifying for their family…

Lord, please guide me… Please grant me the wisdom that I need as u had granted to Solomon…

Oh, that You will bless me enlarge my territory, let Your hand be with me and keep me from harm so that I will free from pain…

i need to settle down!!!!!!

Have been a long long long long time didn't write blog... do not know why.. Just feel lazy...Sorry to those whom concern about me...Erm.i haven't settle down in a church since i came here...i have been to 8 churches whithin these few months.. Methodist, Christ The King, Grace Chaper, GCC, Hope, Skyline, Likas Baptist Church and Basel ...haiz...Please pray for me..I really wanna to settle down in a church so that i can serve Him.. Besides, i really have the burden to evangelise in campus.. haha.. i keep inviting my friends to church recently (even my seniors)..Pray for me so that God will grant me the wisdom i need..Thanks....God bless...