Where are you???

Where are you, GOD???

R YOU abondoned me???

What should I do???

I can't help myself, I need help frm YOU...

PLS, I beg for Your mercy...

PLS...PLS...PLS...

I nearly devastated...

pls hold me up...hold me up...

I cant sustain more stress than this...

I have to learn the ways in distressing. I keep avoiding the issues that are really matter to me.
I cant bear any mistake that I've done.That's the reason I am stress, I think.
After tonight I found that I cant afford any admonishment. I knew I was wrong before being told, but I didn't take action to correct it.
I thought everything would be fine, but the truth is it isn't.
After being told, I cant accept the mistake that I have done.
How stupid am I!!!
Push and force myself to wake up at 5am during weekdays no matter how reluctant I am, just because I am asked to fetch kids to school.
Am I a driver or a student?
Do I need to move out?
What can I do?