Now i m obliged to study or revise sensory because have exam tomorrow...However, i keep thinking of "that"... i hate for my inept in handling "that".
Yesterday morning, i met him again..Actually i was late to catch the bus on that time ..Usually i go to bus stop by 6:45am but i was over slept and it was 7:15am when i got into the bus. Due to my lateness, i didn't get a sit in the bus...I was standing on the bus and reading "Our Daily Bread" along the way from Kg to DKP... i didn't realized he was in the bus too...After the bus reached DKP's bus stop i met my course mate and i discussed the report with her...Just before we end our conversation, he was appeared and said Hi to my course mate, he doesn't know me but he did looked at me...
*For extra information: In the first day of lecture, He entered my class. I knew he was looking at me for few minutes (i was learning Korea from my friend on that time and i was very excited since i can learn one more language) ..
His appearance really surprised me and i had didn't see him for almost two weeks and i almost forgot about him after being busy in preparing mid-term examination in these two weeks...i do not what is the reason for me to have that chance to meet him once i have kept him away from my mind...This cause me unable to forget him...
Actually i do not know why i've put all of my attention on him. (he is the distraction for me in doing everything)..
Everything starts just because of that dream...In my dream, he was teaching and guiding me after i asked him some academic questions...After i woke up, i could still remember every scene in my dream clearly...Not only that, that dream makes me recalled the dream that i had had before i entered Uni..Before i came to Sabah, I dreamt a guy whom stared at me and he look sad, desperate and down...i do not know who was that guy since I’ve never met him...After i had the second dream (in uni), i realized that he was the guy!!!!How strange is it!!!
However, i tried to analyze the second dream by using my logical thinking...Then, i found some reasons to explain why i had that dream. First, i felt insecure in this campus as i was still blur and unfamiliar with the environment of this campus.. Secondly, he is a very good guy and by the time i wish to be a very very good person in front of people in order to glorify God's name...
However until now, i still cannot understand why this dream has engraved in my mind? Not only that, i was started admiring with his abilities and his humility...
I really hope that i am able put him away from my mind, though i wish to meet him again...I really do not know how to deal with this..
Some worlds came across in my mind:
"It's normal to develope a realtionship with a guy in University..."
"You are so traditional and conservative, if you do not date one partner during university...."
"Don’t regret after you have missed the greatest opportunity given...”
Lord, are those(including the dreams) the lies of devil?You know my intention, Lord...You know that I have to strive for excellent in my result in order to get JPA;as You know that the situation of my family...
Oh, father Lord, please guide me, lead me,and hold me as well...You are the One whom know my needs... You know what is the best for me...Please protect me and keep me from harm... Please always remind me what I've promised to you when i was 18...Please let me able to keep the covenant that I've made in front of You... In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
李榮浩 不將就
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那時候 我以為愛的是生活 也算懂得 什麼適合 什麼不可 最近還是一樣 努力著 配合你的性格 你的追求者 你的坎坷 我開的車 算一算 虛度了多少個年頭
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