The Guy in my dream

Now i m obliged to study or revise sensory because have exam tomorrow...However, i keep thinking of "that"... i hate for my inept in handling "that".

Yesterday morning, i met him again..Actually i was late to catch the bus on that time ..Usually i go to bus stop by 6:45am but i was over slept and it was 7:15am when i got into the bus. Due to my lateness, i didn't get a sit in the bus...I was standing on the bus and reading "Our Daily Bread" along the way from Kg to DKP... i didn't realized he was in the bus too...After the bus reached DKP's bus stop i met my course mate and i discussed the report with her...Just before we end our conversation, he was appeared and said Hi to my course mate, he doesn't know me but he did looked at me...

*For extra information: In the first day of lecture, He entered my class. I knew he was looking at me for few minutes (i was learning Korea from my friend on that time and i was very excited since i can learn one more language) ..

His appearance really surprised me and i had didn't see him for almost two weeks and i almost forgot about him after being busy in preparing mid-term examination in these two weeks...i do not what is the reason for me to have that chance to meet him once i have kept him away from my mind...This cause me unable to forget him...

Actually i do not know why i've put all of my attention on him. (he is the distraction for me in doing everything)..

Everything starts just because of that dream...In my dream, he was teaching and guiding me after i asked him some academic questions...After i woke up, i could still remember every scene in my dream clearly...Not only that, that dream makes me recalled the dream that i had had before i entered Uni..Before i came to Sabah, I dreamt a guy whom stared at me and he look sad, desperate and down...i do not know who was that guy since I’ve never met him...After i had the second dream (in uni), i realized that he was the guy!!!!How strange is it!!!

However, i tried to analyze the second dream by using my logical thinking...Then, i found some reasons to explain why i had that dream. First, i felt insecure in this campus as i was still blur and unfamiliar with the environment of this campus.. Secondly, he is a very good guy and by the time i wish to be a very very good person in front of people in order to glorify God's name...

However until now, i still cannot understand why this dream has engraved in my mind? Not only that, i was started admiring with his abilities and his humility...

I really hope that i am able put him away from my mind, though i wish to meet him again...I really do not know how to deal with this..

Some worlds came across in my mind:
"It's normal to develope a realtionship with a guy in University..."
"You are so traditional and conservative, if you do not date one partner during university...."
"Don’t regret after you have missed the greatest opportunity given...”

Lord, are those(including the dreams) the lies of devil?You know my intention, Lord...You know that I have to strive for excellent in my result in order to get JPA;as You know that the situation of my family...

Oh, father Lord, please guide me, lead me,and hold me as well...You are the One whom know my needs... You know what is the best for me...Please protect me and keep me from harm... Please always remind me what I've promised to you when i was 18...Please let me able to keep the covenant that I've made in front of You... In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Cried

Finally i cried this morning.....I really wanna to cry since Wednesday after i had been staying in library for six hours in editing our group assignment that we have to hand up by today....
Why i wanna to cry?
No other reasons but tired and stress...
Why i cannot cry when i wanna to cry?
No other reasons but too tired and no more energy for crying...
Initially i thought i will cry in the first week of being in UMS, but i never thought i can be such strong...
I had been facing a lot of trouble and problems last few weeks...I believe that if those incidents that i had faced happen to others, they will start to express their depression by crying ...But thanks God, i didn't cry but i able to joke and entertain my friends with my problems...
Why I can cry this morning?
No other reasons but i cannot answer my grammar quiz yesterday...I have done my revision, but i unable to answer...I will fail this quiz...haiz...
Really hope God will show his mercy upon me...

Orientation week in UMS

This week is really an exhausted week...Woke up at 4am ang slept at 2am..Just slept 4 2 hours..Really can't imagine i m still alive after being torturing 4 almost a week..I never thought tat i can be a very tough and independent girl...As u know i came here alone,without accompanied by parents even friends...i have faced a lot of problems in the registration day in UMS, though i had solved all my prblems i faced by praying and calling to my brother(Jit Yo)..really appreciate 4 everything he've done 4 me...I know a lot of new friends from different states (got chinese,malay,dusun,kadasan,iban...)

Now i miss my dog...feel curious,rite?i didn't miss my parents but miss my dog(Vim)...haha...Act, no other reason just because "he" can't chat to me..i can call my parents when i miss them,but i can't call Vim when i miss "him"....haha..

Anyway,i know i have to face a lot of challenges in uni life...Just hope that i can be strong enough no matter in mentally or physically...

Preparations for the life in uni

i never thought that my money that i earned last few months will be spent in just three days..i spent RM219.5 to buy the ticket from KL to KK.I also spent about RM2000 in paying the tuition fee and photostatting those documents.Not only that, i am going to spend RM2450 to buy a laptop(Toshiba Satellite L310)...i know the money i spent is worth to spend,but when the number in my account book is decreasing, i feel anxious enough...i worry about the life in uni,cause i have not enough money to survive in uni...haizzzz.....

i have not pack my belonging that need to bring to Sabah...Just feel lazy to do it...

感恩

我真的很感谢神让我可以进入大学。。。虽然不是我最想要的大学，虽然需要乘坐飞机才能到达的大学，虽然没有同学跟我读同一间的大学。。。但是我依然感谢上帝章显他的慈爱在我的身上，让我能感受到神是与我同在的、从都没有离弃我的。。。因为他应允我的祈求让我能读我想要读的课系--Food science。。。


我现在别无他求，只希望神赐给我聪明智慧及健壮的身体。。。我真的不希望历史重演（考试时生大病）。。。


我听我哥说，我这次必须自己照顾好我自己。。。不是他不想照顾我，而是他没办法照顾。。。因为大学范围很大，他在西边，我在东边。。。课系又不同，见面的机会是等于零。。。更何况我将会很忙（因为food science很难读，跟medic有得比），所以连抽时间出来见面都难。。。


我哥对我的大学生活感到悲观。。。而我对我的大学生活没有期待、没有担忧，我只包着平常心去看待我的大学生活。。。

Genting

8th-10th of Jun, I and my family were stayed in Genting Highland with my uncle's family...Nine of us were stayed over night in Awana hotel..

There is not as cold as i thought... And there is the suitable habitat for mosquitoes due to the moderate temperature...Luckily i brought Allano lotion(Amway product which can prevent your sweet blood being donated to mosquitoes )...Initially, my mum said Genting is quite cold and there might be no mosquitoes...But for the sake of my skin(if there is too cold, it might dry up my skin), i decided to bring it there(to moisturise my skin)...

We reached there at around 5pm... Once i reach there,i was accompanied by my two cousins to swim in the swimming pool...

On the second day morning, i went for a walk in the garden which is one the facilities in the hotel...

After the lunch, we(my father,brother and three cousins)were going to the top of the Genting Hill by cable car...That was my first time to take cable car...However it was not as exciting as i thought...we were wasting an hour to Q...and when i got in site the cable car,i started feeling faint...Haizz....

On the third day,after check out,we found that 11 cups of pudding left in the fridge...We were trying to get it back,but we fail...Haizzz

难熬的会经过的

最近发现我喜欢上 "快乐一家“的主题曲。


原因是我对这首歌的最后一句歌词有所感触 ——

“难熬的会经过的”

不知道是不是我觉得最近的生活很难熬，还是我一直无法忘记我曾难熬的日子。。。

由于这首歌并不是完全表达我内心的感受，所以我去把它的歌词改掉，让我可以好好抒发我内心的情感——

伤心回忆想几遍了 你的眼还是红红的

生命总要些苦难 现在不过多了一个

捱过了何必再想着 有些事总该遗忘的

你想着想着又哭了 我明白的

谁都难以释怀

别再哭了 多不值得

笑一笑把难过变坚强

生活苦涩 让你坚强

一切苦难 将会变成过去

别再哭了 多不值得

失去也是另一种获得

伤心回忆 不属你的

一切苦难 将会变成过去

难熬的 会经过的

*To：写这首歌词的人

Sorry，乱改你的歌词，希望你别介意。。