Stressful

Tomorrow have Dr. Yasmin class.
Her class always make me feel stress and anxiety as I don't know when she will give us POP QUIZ.
Think of the first week of her lecture,
she gave us Quiz after the lecture straight away.
Wow! I could remember that my heart missed one bit after I heard of it...

I don't know why Pn. Izreen was in bad mood in this morning.
She expressed her anger to us by having a Quiz.
SWT!
I didn't study and didn't do any preparation for this course as I was exhausted last night after doing 6 hours lab work.
What to do?
I don't know how to face my results for this sem.

I tried to share my feeling to my dad, but he can't understand me and blaming me for taking part in too many activities in campus and in church.
I keep explaining to him, but he couldn't accept it.
Maybe he was right, I am overloaded.
However, I need his comfort for this moment and not his admonishment.
Who should I talk to?
Who can understand me?
Who can lend me his shoulder to let me lean on?
Who is my refuge?

What I can do now is pray and ask for God's comfort and strength for me to continue my tough journey.

Feel lucky and glad that I know Him since I was born. Otherwise I don't know how to overcome the troubles, conflicts, and difficulties happened in my life.

复杂的心情

开心，
因为有一班坦诚的朋友

失望，
因为自己表现不好

难过，
因为失去了见证

感动，
因为有一班能互相关怀的朋友

心痛，
因为他和她太累了

感恩，
因为有个避难所

后悔，
因为做了些不该做的事

I didn't mean it

I didn't mean to disturb u...
Really...
Am I too hasty?
I do not know.
I just want to try what I can do to achieve the best results...
Sad, sad, sad...
Why am I getting hurt so easily recently?
I m so so so fragile and not as tough as I used to be...
Lord, please give me strength to overcome all these things in this very moment...
Pray for me, guys!

Help! I need help~

You know, until now, there is no emcee for Japanese Culture Night which will be held at the end of this month, 31st of July...OMG!

Really stress~

At first, them said they wanna find first year students to be the emcees for that night...But you know what, time is passing unrelentingly...So far, they haven't found any first year student who are capable to be the emcee...

Guys, how can you discover a talented person in just a few days?
That's impossible!!!!

That's why I keep finding emcees before the sem break of the 2nd sem of 2009/2010...

But, most people rejected... I know they maybe busy in studying or other activities that they are participated in..

But for me, they are acting cruel to me...

Help~

That's another problem now...

Act, I won't be around in UMS at that night...
I will be in the Sepulut together with a team of SSMP students and also medical team to deliver help to those needy villagers and students...

Who can help me?

Can anyone takes over my position in JCN?

I wish I can devote myself to being the best in this position, but I can't....

Left 3 papers

What is my feeling after Statistic paper?
Speechless...
I am not sure with the answer...
Not like last time,
I always confident in Mathematics....
BUT,
now I am scared...
What results will I get for Statistic?
I have to admit that I didn't put a lot of efforts on it...
Though I really hope that I can get at least B+....
Seems like it is impossible for me to get what I wish to...
I still remember my mid term for Statistic, I chose the wrong test...
haizz....
What should I do?

Delight yourself in the LORD and HE will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in HIM and HE will do this: HE will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Psalms 37:4-6

Left 3 papers
After finished the major subjects, laziness is endeavouring to "devour" my volition to study....
How am I going to sit for these 3 papers without proper preparations?


I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:13

进步？退步？

考试第一周就这样过去了， 三张考卷也就这样考完了。。。
无意中发现我的读书方式及心态变了。。。
以前我是为了不要冒险，把老师所教过的都认真地阅读；
现在我是为了吸取知识， 把老师所教过的都认真的研读。

人家说， 你真大胆， 不看历年考卷吗？
抱歉， 上个学期就是看太多了， 反而令自己混淆。
因为有考卷，没答案；
增加了思考的时间， 减少了消化课文的时间。

知道出题的模式能改变什么吗？
倒不如安安份份地去消化学生应该要懂得的知识。。。

看历年的考卷的目的简单得很吧~
只是为了考好成绩。。。

可能是懒惰， 所以找些借口安慰自己。。。
然而， 我们考试是为了什么？
为了考好成绩而考？
为了测试知识而考？

前者昂或是后者呢？

多数人都是为了前者
结果是不晓得如何应用知识。。。

教育的失败昂或是我不明白考试的“真谛”

思及于此，
我的思想， 心态， 脑袋是进步了还是退步了？

这学期的成绩， 我好“期待”。。。
不是因为我能“作答自如 ”，
而是希望讲师能尽责地批改。
有两科主科修科目的讲师由于太忙碌， 而无法抽空批改半期考的考卷。
累积下来有三百多份的考卷，再 加上学哥学姐的考卷的话。。。

哇， 数量可真不少啊~

他们会如何批改呢？
一天平均花五小时批改十份， 一份约有十道题目。一道题平均约耗三分钟。
要批改完我班的考卷就需花约一个多月的时间。
（这是以最有效率的方式计算）
至于学哥学姐的。。。
抱歉，
无法预计所耗时间。

这学期的成绩会进步还是退步呢？

很快的，到了第二学期的尾声

考了两个科目， 心情没那并没像想象中的沉重。。。
应该感恩吧！
不再会为这不会做的考卷而流泪。。。
虽说放下了， 但还是无法入眠。。。
是因为还有五个科目正在等着我吗？
还是我并没有完全放下？

Delight yourself in the Lord and HE will give you the disires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; Trust in HIM and HE will do this: HE will make your righteuosness like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Psalms 37:4-6