1/17/2010

Busy and Frustrated

Busy, busy and busy!!!!!!!!!

This word has become my best friend in this month...

Almost no one can replace it in my heart...

Why am I so busy and loaded?

Haizzzzzz.......

Just because of

I am the informal emcee of UMS Pesta Ang Pao this year which will be held on 30th of January...

Some more I have to spend a lot of time in gathering the information for topic that we are going to debate with UUM in Chinese Debate Competition next month...

I have no time to study and don't even think of building a genuine relationship with GOD, family and friends...

I have been occupied, feel burden and started astray from the will of GOD...

I plan to do a lot of things for GOD though i am not manage to do what I've plan...

18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.c]">[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. 21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Romans 7:18-25


What changes did i have in last two weeks?

I registered as non-resident of UMS on 14th of January 2010...

I moved to Kingfisher (my aunt's house) on 16th of January 2010...

I am not the resident of Kampung E, UMS

I am not a "kampung" girl anymore!!!!!!! hehe

I won't be Sardine anymore...hehe...NO need to squeeze bus with others lo...hahaha

12/31/2009

Feelings

Feel happy,excited, grateful, thankful....Juz feel nice and can't express my feeling by words...

Step into 2nd sem, my aim make me feel challenged yet hopefulness...

Looking back to 1st sem, I feel thankful enough...

Thank You, my Lord
for listening to my prayers
(I got JPA scholarship and my results is far more better than i predicted)
for You've strengthened my faith on You after i asked You to grant me whatever I need
for sending 'angels' to my side when my faith was shaking

Thank you,dad n mom
for what you have done for me
for praying for me, my lecturers and coursemates
And encouragements that you gave me when I was in desperation

Thanks, my bro
for your financial support and your help (haha, dun worry,bro! i will pay back the money you had given to me)

Thanks,my friends
for your help, prayer, encouragement and support...

May God bless you all abundantly...

11/20/2009

小六评审成绩放榜了!!!

昨天,家中电话忽然响起
接电话后才从堂表妹(我的阿姨嫁给我的叔叔生下的唯一女儿)的口中得知

小六评审的成绩已放榜了!!!

曾经身为补习老师的我,连忙发简讯给学生,向她们打听成绩。

信就是所望之事的实低,是未见之事的确据
                希伯来书 11:1
我一直都很相信她们能考取优异的成绩。

但,

信心若是没有行为就是死的。
           雅各书 2:17 

说起来有点惭愧,在她们面临小六评审时,别说鼓励教导、关心她们,我竟然忘了为她们祷告。。。

坦白说,

我是一位要求非常高及严厉老师,我满意的程度是甲,乙还能接受,丙呢?勉强啦~其它?!免谈!

虽然当时我考小六时的成绩不理想,但我对学生的要求非常高。所谓教不严,师之惰;然而真正的原因是收了钱。哈哈!


感到庆幸的是我所教的科目,她(薛虹)都拿甲,除了写作部分。。。

然而,


我那精灵的堂表妹(恩惠)因我入大学后少了督促,在慵懒的态度下进入考场。。。


人种的是什么,收的也是什么。
           加拉太书 5:22

她的成绩令我蛮失望的,因我对她的期望很高。
*若没记错当时她的健康状况也不好(气喘)

她的国理、华理、华作及数得甲,其余乙,英文得丙。。。
为何她的英文得到如此成绩?扪心自问
是我忽略了吗?
是!
在四个月的补习期间,英文练习是少了点。。。
希望我下次能够平衡、完善地顾及学生所有的科目。


愿她中学生生涯能向她的大哥(征宇)一样有能力地以成绩来荣耀神。

当然,我更希望的是她能在基督里茁壮地成长,讨神的喜悦。

因

敬畏耶和华是智慧的开端,
认识至圣者便是聪明。
         箴言9:10

11/14/2009

Give thanks

The first thing i have to give thanks is i got PTPTN,finally..
Thanks God that i can survive in this sem without the loan...
My parents were not able to afford my fees in Uni as they didn't have any income; though my brother did help me a lot as he got JPA scolarship and he always spend money prudently...

Secondly,
my eldest brother and my best friend are going to marry!!!!

Thanks God!!

...a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.
Genesis 2:24

May God bless them abundantly…

Bless their marriage; bless their property
Bless their life; bless their job as well…

I was being touched and exited at the moment I received the news…

The scenes of playing around with my brothers during childhood appear in my mind; the time we were fighting, arguing, and mocking each other; comforting, caring and praying for each other were flashed in front of my eyes…

...

Still remember the first time I invited my best friend-Sin Yean to church…
I pray eagerly in the deep of my heart so that she will become a Christian one day...

God listened to my prayer…
She baptized and became a Christian even served as a MIF leader in church before she went to Singapore to work…

My brother fell in love with her after she had baptized…
They have been seeing each other for two and the half years…

May be it’s their time…

Thirdly,my parents got job since last two months...

Blessed is the man who perserves under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
James 1:12


Now they are staying in Mersing, Johore

11/10/2009

I can feel HIS love

After I back from the examination of The Civilization of Islam and Asia (TITAS),
my tears flow down from my eyes unconsciously...

As the love and the peace of God are surrounded me and flowing in my heart…

The spirit of praise urges me to sing and play songs by using Harmonica…

The rhythms of the songs trigger my tears to flee from confined in my eyes…

The lyrics of the songs played in my mind were reminding me how God loves me and how much His grace has shown to me…

The warm wind blew into my room through window was groping my face gently
It was like the hands of God touching and wiping off my tears which sojourn on my cheeks…

Twittering of birds came into my room through window was reverberating around my ears
It was like the whispering of God, saying “Don’t be afraid, my gal. I m with you”

His love has caused ripples to spread across the lake inside my heart without ending…


当我考完回教与亚洲文明史,
眼泪毫无意识地从眼中流下。

因神的爱与平安环绕着我,穿流于我的那已因失望而冷却的心中.

赞美之灵不断地催促着我心,
叫我唱诗及用口琴来赞美他。

诗歌的旋律促使眼泪流下,使它不再困锁于我那双狭窄的眼眶内.

感人的歌词回荡于脑海中,提醒着我神的爱与恩典多么敞阔高深.

窗外的风轻轻抚摸着我的脸,
仿佛神的双手抚摸、拭擦逗留在脸上的泪

窗外的鸟鸣声随风飘入耳中,
仿佛神在耳边轻诉,孩子别怕我就在你旁

平静的心湖因他的爱起了无数不停扩散着的涟漪。。。

11/06/2009

First week of final examination 考试第一周

2/11/09
第一天的年终考

Today is the first day of my final examination…Mathematics…


There is one question I can’t solve…Question number 4, and it takes up 36 marks…
haiz…
Feel disappointed…

I thought I m able to solve all the questions and able to get full marks in this paper, though the
fact had stirred my calm and peaceful emotion into an agitated condition…
今天考数学
一题占了36分的,不会答
难过,失望
满分梦,灭了。。。
Psalm 3
O Lord, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!
Many are saying of me,
“God will not deliver him.”
But you are a shield around me, O Lord
You bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
I lie down and sleep;
I wake up again, because the Lord sustains me.
I will not fear the tens of thousands
Drawn up against me on every side.
Arise, O Lord!
Deliver me, O my God!
Strike all my enemies on the jaw;
Break the teeth of the wicked.
From the Lord comes deliverance.
May your blessing be on your people.
诗篇 3篇
耶和华啊,我的敌人何其加增!有许多人起来攻击我;

有许多人议论我说:“他得不着 神的帮助。”〔细拉〕

但你耶和华是我四围的盾牌,是我的荣耀,又是叫我抬起头来的。

我用我的声音求告耶和华,他就从他的圣山上应允我。〔细拉〕

我躺下睡觉,我醒着,耶和华都保佑我。

虽有成万的百姓来周围攻击我,我也不怕

耶和华啊,求你起来!我的 神啊,求你救我!因为你打了我一切仇敌的腮骨,敲碎了恶人的牙齿。

救恩属乎耶和华,愿你赐福给你的百姓。〔细拉〕

I need to be thankful….
Thanks God that I was able to solve all the questions except one
Thanks God that I was able to sit for mathematics examination in a very good condition, no sickness
Thanks God that I am able to lay down my worries and stress to God while I was doing the mathematics paper
Thanks God that I m still breathing and able to sit for University final examination…
需感恩。。。
因:
只有一题不会,
无病无痛地考;
能考大学评审,
无担无忧地考。。。
3/11/09
第二天。。。

Today, I took ‘grammar in context’ examination…
Really “speechless” when I saw the questions…
Quite hard, though can be answered…
I didn’t really complete the essay and I wrote nonsense and craps due to the insufficient of time...
Actually, I feel regret to take grammar in context as it is really hard to score…
However, I did learn a lot…
Thanks God for letting me to have learnt a lot in grammar.
Thanks god for letting me able to answer those question.
(Although I am not sure with my answer)

"...in Me(Jesus) you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart!

I have overcome the world."

John 16:33


“。。。在我里面有平安。在世上你们有苦难,但你们可以放心,我已经胜了世界。”

约翰福音16:33

Thanks God for giving His peace in my heart…..


5/11/09 第三天


2 papers today…

Basic Food Science and Nutrition and Techniques and Skills of Study….
I don’t really know how to answer both papers….

Devastated after this...
Really worry that I have to resit Basic next year…

Really don’t want to get know juniors through this way…

两张试卷。。。

基本食物科学与营养 和 学习技能与技巧

都不会

垮了

明年需重考?!

不, 不要这样结识学弟妹们!

Lord, manifest Your mercy upon me…
神阿, 怜悯我。。。

I’ve already tried my best to study Basic…
I‘ve finished almost the whole Murano reference book which is be used for four years. I do not how to answer, though….

I am deserve to get B or B+ even A, if according to the afford I've paid...

However, I know that I will never be able to get that as I’ve got only 28% out of 50% from the previouse lecturer-Datin.
Hence, the most possible gred for me to get is C-...
努力过,
付出了;
应得的,
得不到。。。
Lord, please help me…
Reveal your justice and faithfulness…
神阿,救我吧!
彰显你的公义与信实。。。

About Technique, I left the hall one hour earlier before the exam finished…
I was exhausted and weary on that time….
Honestly, I want to get A in technique…I did studied….
Could I?
Psalm 4:1
Answer me when i call to You,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
诗篇 4:1
显我为义的 神啊,
我呼吁的时候,求你应允我!
我在困苦中,你曾使我宽广;
现在求你怜恤我,听我的祷告。

Relieved 松懈
Unloaded and relieved after finished 4 papers...
Even though I do not know how to do all those papers …

松懈。。。

考完四张了

呼。。。

虽都不会答


Thanks God for letting me having this kind of experience... Having the feeling of being tortured by examination…

感恩:

有机会享受被考试折腾的滋味。。。



6/11/09
第四天的时候。。。

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,whose confidence is in Him.

He will be like a tree planted by the water

that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit
Jeremiah 17:7-8
倚 靠 耶 和 华 ,
以 耶 和 华 为 可 靠 的 ,
那 人 有 福 了
他必像树栽于水旁,
在河边扎根,
炎热来到,并不惧怕,
叶子仍必青翠,
在乾旱之年毫无挂虑,
而且结果不止。
耶利米书17:7-8

Today I took philosophy examination… 30 multiple choice questions, pretty easy….

Just spend half an hour to answer it…

Once again, left the hall early and straight back to kg E…

考哲学
30简易的选择题
30分钟的解答后
提早离开考场回去
Lucky 好运
Once I reach the library bus stop, I saw E bus was arrived…
haha…
Don’t even need to wait for the bus…
不必等巴士。。。
Feel gleeful, grateful and thankful...
Got 64 over 70 for the philosophy… (maybe is the highest marks in my class/session)
Pretty sure that I can get A for this subject…

庆幸,感谢及感恩
70分得64
甲, 你是属于我的。。。


Thanks god for giving me the chance to glorify His name and lifted up my head…
Though, please get rid of my pride and arrogance...

感谢:
能荣耀神,
能抬起头。。。
但, 
除去我的骄傲与狂傲。。


Pride goes before destruction,

a haughty spirit before a fall.
Proverb 16:18


骄傲在败坏以先;
狂心在跌倒之前。
                                     箴言16:18

Examine my heart...Please reminds me to be humble and able to give all the glory to You as those are belong to You…

检查我
提醒我
使我谦卑
使你尊荣
Thanks lord!!!
You have consoled and comforted me…
Thanks for never abandon me…
Thanks for letting me feel your presence…
Thanks a lot a lot and a lot….

感谢你
从来不曾撇弃我
你同在
我衷心无尽感谢。。。

10/25/2009

It's the time...是时候了。。。

There is a time for everthing,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
凡事都有定期,天下万务都有定時。
栽种有時,拔出所栽种的也有時;
拆毁有時,建造有時;
哀慟有時,跳舞有時;
怀抱有時,不怀抱有時;
保守有時,舍弃有時;
静默有時,言语有時;
争战有時,和好有時。
传道书 3:1-8  

After have been tortured for few months, it’s the time for me to let it go…

Why let it to distract myself?

The reason that I can’t cast my burden on HIM is due to that, I think…

It’s time to release, to get free…

Just feel that I am stupid enough…

The GUY in my dream doesn't equal to my dream GUY...


经过了长时间的折腾, 终于愿意放下。。。

忽然觉得自己很傻

是时候了。。。

无论我做什么,想什么, 他都不知。。。

何苦呢?

不是说好要单身吗?

为何会为自己寻找烦恼呢?

是,在没见面之前已在梦里相见。。。

但, 这并不代表是他。。。

是,母亲在还没认识父亲之前也在梦里相遇

但, 这并不代表历史会重演。。。

他已有他想要的幸福,是我所不能给的。。。

即使我能, 也不是他想要的。。。

因为对象不对。。。

为何要付出无谓的代价?

为何没人愿意为我付出?

任命吧。。。


虽然如此。。。


Blessd are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted
            Matthew 5:4
哀动的人有福了,
因为他们必得着安慰
          马太福音5:4
Thank you, Jesus...
Thank you for letting me to learn a new lesson
Thank you for reminding me about 
YOUR unbounded LOVE
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for sacrifying YOUR life 
and ransomed my life

Please, Lord...

Examine my heart
Hold me as well
Let Your wisdom 
be Bestowed upon me 
So that i'll able to testify your LOVE

谢谢你,耶稣

因为如此, 我更加体会你对我的爱

你爱我, 甚至愿意牺牲生命来赎回我

你的爱远远超过世间中的爱。。。

领导我,检察我。。。

让我能专心一志地把这爱传出去。。。