The words from the bottom of my parents’ heart....

Dad told me that every one is looking down on him including his own children


I know dad always have a sense of inferiority due to his low education level...Sometimes,when we are impatient to explain something to him,we will say:"Aiyoh!u won't understand la...It is not as easy as u think la!"..of course sometime we are not listen to him...The words that uttered from our mouth and the attitude we've shown to him have triggered him to think that way... Actually we didn't mean anything...we didn't despise him...However we have already hurt his heart deeply...



Mom told me that she wish God to mold and prune her children


Recently she feel very disappointed to us..Just because of my brother is in a relationship with a non-christian girl...Mom said, she have no right to choose our partner for us, but what she wish is we will be the one whom God pleased...I know she is very sad and hard to accept the choice that my brother've made and i know that she has also no any expectation with the guy i'll choose in the future too..
However i insist that i will choose a christian guy to be my life partner, but still i have can't assure that i will do exactly what i insisted to...


Both of my parents feel sad for us because they are not willing to see any bad thing happens to us...They don't want us to be hurt...So, they feel that they are the most failure parents in the world due to us didn't listen to them...

亲爱的阿爸天父：

我爱你。我也知道你对我的爱多过我对你的爱。我知道最近我远离了你。我已经有一个星期没和父母亲一同唱诗祷告（因为我沉迷于LOST这部电影）。我也知道这个星期我犯下很多有心、无心的过犯。因为在我心情很低落、烦燥时，我不回应我父母对我说的话，甚至连看都不看他们一眼。可是我却没有为我犯下的错向你认罪祷告。对不起，求你赦免我。


昨天，爸爸散到腰了。痛得他无法站太久，整个人必须斜着来走路。他的情况就像妈妈一样。我不知道你要我们这一家学习什么功课。爸爸已经被人欺负到无法申冤的地步了，他还必须忍受和妈妈一样的病痛？！我真的很怕父母亲有一天会痛到无法行走。上帝，你知道他们还必须为你作工，他们还没有为你建立合乎你心意的教会。神啊，求你医治他们！我求你。


前天，大哥在病倒了，无法工作。不过我很感谢你垂听我的祷告，医治了他，让他今天可以返回工作岗位。


神啊，你是不是要我改过，所以允许让这些事情临到我的家人身上呢？如果是这样，我愿意改过，我愿意帮爸爸舀沟渠的水去浇菜，我愿意帮妈妈做任何她吩咐我做的事情，我愿意听从他们所说的话。我希望你能医好爸爸妈妈身上的病痛。我希望你的荣耀彰显在他们身上。


神啊，求你按你的旨意行事。甚愿你赐福于我们一家，扩张我们的境界，常与我们同在，保佑我们不遭患难不受艰苦。阿们！

The reason

There is a lot of trials and disasters in our life.. Those unfortunate come without any sign..It's out of our control..I know this called life...


Many things happened last year....I really want to write it down....But i felt confused...Every time I recall those events that happened in my family, my tear will roll down unconsciously...


Actually i don't know how to start to write..Maybe I need some time to rearrange those events...I don't know...


"Tears may fall through the night,joy comes with the morning" this is wat I hope for....

期待

不知为什么最近想要用华语来表达我的心情，可能是因为这几天接触的都是中文书。（这几天从网上看了几篇小说，各种类型的小说。。）



我很期待冷气的到来。。。昨晚我简直无法入眠，被那闷热的空气笼罩着我的身体，导致体内的水分不断从毛孔排出，弄得我全身粘嗒嗒的，很不舒服。搞得我整晚辗转难眠。。。



我很期待钢琴的到来。。。我知道我的父母很想要开办教会，所以我想用我这几个月打工的钱来买。虽然我很想用这笔钱来买电脑，以备我上大学所需，但我深知若我以神的国为先，神必定为我预备我的一切所需。。。

我很期待文章的完成。。。我正在修改一篇文章，故事是关于已一个失明将近十年的女生。。。同时我也在写关于我家人的故事 。。。

我很期待神给的异象。。。真的真的很期待。。。

苦难中的甘甜

这个星期我忙着帮我的六叔“看”书。我是他的新书《青蛙睡在鞋子里》的第一个读者。我帮他改过文章上的错字等等。。。


这个星期也是我所有的补习学生难熬的一周，他们必须面对年中考。。。虽然如此，我人觉得我比他们紧张多了，压力多了。。。我不断地提醒他们在家要温书，也额外多加时间教他们补习；同时我也不断默默为他们祈祷，只盼他们能考取理想的成绩。。。忽然觉得我会那么地紧张是因为我怕被家长们认为我是个无能的老师。。。“拿人钱财替人消灾”这句话不断地浮现在我的脑海。。。


我和我的父母已经住在吧生接近五个月了，父母依然没有薪水，靠的是一些教会兄弟姐妹的奉献；靠的是神的恩典。。。父母也很难适应吧生的天气，时常失眠，尤其是我的父亲。他简直无法忍受这里闷热的空气。。。他常常嚷着要安装冷气，但由于屋主（六叔）不同意，他简直不能对这间屋子动任何手脚。。。这就是寄人篱下的痛苦了。。。今天，我听到了一个好消息。有人会送冷气给我父母哦！虽然还没送来，不过我相信我的六叔不可能会连送来的冷气也拒之以外吧！希望今晚我的父亲能安然好睡，不再会被闷醒。。。


虽然这几个月我父母没有薪金可领，但我一直看到神的恩典在我们的身上章显。。。我心依然感谢神让我们遇到在人眼里看为苦难的事情。。。

Patience is a plaster for all sores.忍耐可以减轻一切痛苦

Why i never get excellent result in any examination!!!!!!!!!



Sometimes i am looking for some evasions to explain why i never get full As in Government examination...


That is:

• I didn't have a stable and good environment to study. Because i have transferred to different schools since i was studying in kindergarten. Every time was transferred to different state..
  From SRJK(C) Kahang,Johor (Yeart 1 to Year 3) to SJK(C) Yue Min,Sabah (Year 4 to Year 6) ...After that, my family moved from Sabah to Klang,Selangor..So, i study Form 1 in SMJK Chung Hwa,Klang.After one year,i have transferred to SMJK NAN HWA, Sitiawan of Perak(Form 2 to Upper 6) ...



• I didn't have a good language foundation due to the lousy teachers in my primary school..



• I never attend tuition class(except the MUET tuition class)

However, i know that the actual reason is i was not hardworking enough and i was lazy..

I could still remember the passion before i entered Form Six... i had made a plan for my life....i told to myself,parents and God that i must get 4 flat in STPM...i was believing that by the power of God i can do everything...Cause there is nothing impossible in God....

In upper six,i had to be independent...my parents had moved to KL due to the job...i have to take care of myself... But i don't know how to take care of myself....I fell sick almost every months...I still could remember that i can't attend the mid-year exam because i was sick...After that,the most unlucky thing happens to me!!!
I was infected by dengue during the trial...I was depressed enough on that time....seems like i could not do anything except lied on the bed...
I just pray earnestly,i tried my best to memorize what i have been read and study before...Haizzz
In conclusion, i have been a very bad and unlucky year in upper six...




However i had experienced the mercy, grace and love from the almighty God...




Actually, i deeply understand that God has his purpose on everyone of us...I didn't get full As doesn't mean that i m not the good one,isn't?

My life in the first three months of 2009

Have a period of time didn't write blog.....This is because i had been very busy in the last few months...

In the month of Jan,i tried my best to apply to be Guru Sandaran in the primary school of CHUEN MIN,Klang...However due to my absence to the meeting, they didn't accept me...(Actually on that time i was stayed in Sitiawan to move my things to Klang).

Before CNY, i received a call from PPD of Klang who asked me to work as Guru Sandaran in SRJK(C)Yuk Ying ,Kapar...Walauye, the school very far from my house!I need to drive about 20minutes to reach the school from my house...Not only that,i have to jam for 30 minutes on the way to the school...Haizz...so i give up to work there...

After CNY, i recieved another call from PPD...This time they asked me to work in SRJK(C) Pandamaran A as Guru Ganti..Initially i thought the salary of Guru Ganti is same as Guru Sandaran,so i accepted the job...After i went to the school and met the principal,i discovered that the salary is different!!!!

KLUONG!!!!!(a lightning bolt)

The salary of Guru ganti is counted by day...About Rm35 per day and not included holiday and weekend...My salary is very low(compared to Guru Sandaran) and i had had in charge of many things because i was the class teacher of 3P...I had to wake up at 5.30am and must be in the school at 6.45am (in school days)...In the afternoon i had to teach tuition in my house until night....How "meaningful" of my life...I spent my time by working and sleeping in the whole month of Feb...

In the end of Feb, i decided to resign the job...After i informed the principal, she tried to "detain" me....haha!!!That means i am "useful" lo.Isn't?Due to my responsibility to the pupils of my class, i decided to work for another two weeks until 13th of Mac..

Huh,after resign , i felt relax enough...Because i just need to teach tuition class and spent my time to do my favor things...

After i spent my time like a lotus eater for almost a week, something happened in my life....

I still remember in the night of 23th of March(about 7.45pm),a white puppy intruded my life...In the first sight i saw it, i wished to name it as BOLT(the name of the puppy in Disney movie)..Because the puppy looks similar as the Bolt...It whole body covered with white fur,even its eyebrow,eyelash and nail is white in colour! Really can't imagine!!!I love the dog very much...On that night,i stayed up all night to think a name for my puppy...

Ace

Bright

Bold

Bolt

Ice

Milk

Snowy

Soya

bean

Vim

Zappy

After considering the term of meaning and pronunciation...Finally, i choose Vim... The meaning of "Vim" is ebullient vitality and energy...